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Friday, May 9, 2008

Simple things...

This is a pretty cool quote from the book I'm reading. Enjoy. :)

"It is always the simple things that change our lives. And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen. Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things."
Donald Miller
Blue Like Jazz, p. 217

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Dragon Slaying and Progression

The two heroes basked in the glory of the kill. The warrior and the healer, aware that they had done the impossible, both weary from battle, but strangely energized.

Something had happened here, something special. These two combatants against this evil beast, these two people who had never fought side by side before had done the unthinkable. As they both looked at the dead carcass of the beast they had slain, neither knew what they felt, they just knew it was good. The "Hurrahs" of their wounded cohorts and the many exhortations they received afterwards by numerous friends meant little compared to the bond that had been formed. It was as if, in fighting the beast, alone, but together, these two heroes had formed a bond that surpassed mere camaraderie.

In the days following this triumph, many more battles were fought, and many more evils in all forms were defeated. The pair became closer and eventually realized that the monsters they fought, in all forms, real or imagined, were what had drawn them together. They shared the same quests, enjoyed the same rewards, and were generally content when they journeyed together. But, under the surface, something was growing. A need to progress. To move beyond simple treasure hunting and questing. Something was there, just out of reach, and they had to find out what.

And so began the quest to find the quest. The heroes began doing things they had never done before. They strayed off the beaten paths, they explored exciting, and sometimes frightening new places. Sometimes, they walked alone, sometimes together, but each was always drawn to the other, as if somehow they were looking for the same thing. In time, the two did find what they were looking for...each other. Out heroes realized that they were as the melody and harmony in a song, both different in many ways, but completely complimentary to the other in many respects

Our heroes didn't know where their paths would lead them or exactly what they would end up in the end, but they knew after all their journeys apart from each other that the way they wanted to travel them was side by side. This unbeatable pair who had overcome so much adversity in their short lives, together realized that whatever lay ahead held no sway over them as long as they could face it with the other by their side. As they set out upon the trail to the next adventure, the pair couldn't help but think about from where they had come and how quickly their purpose had become apparent, but they still walked on, unafraid of the future.

To be continued...

Monday, April 21, 2008

Isaiah 40:28-31

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.



Read this and tell me it's not encouraging...I dare you!!

I'm hoping at some point to get a permanent reminder of this verse in some form. Just haven't decided yet. It was, is, and will always be my favorite Bible verse. It has meant more to me in my life than everything.

What it means to me is that no matter how far I fall, no matter how bad the situation, all I have to do is give all my burdens to God and He won't just make them lighter, He'll carry them for me, He'll hold me up when I can't stand, and He'll make sure that I have strength to get through ANYTHING this world throws at me. Can you imagine the feeling of relief that assurance gives?

It's really quite amazing...

Ringing my own doorbell...

Have you ever had to ring your own doorbell? I had to yesterday...

I went to pick my kids up for the day and didn't feel comfortable walking into my own damn house because I don't know if thats "kosher" considering my situation. I felt very odd as I walked up to my house and rang the bell and had my oldest son answer the door. I didn't like it one bit, but I guess thats all part of the "you'll get used to it" that I always hear.

It was a tough day for me yesterday, I'm not sure exactly why either. I know it probably had something to do with me having the kids and then having to give them back, but I don't think that was all of it. I spent most of the day yesterday with people who helped shape me into what I am today. It was the 100th anniversary of my church and the entire morning service and the evening dessert get together were filled with old stories, long time friends and mentors, and lots of memories of how things used to be.

I got to hug the first youth pastor I ever remembered after not seeing him for almost 25 years. I got to see people that raised me up in the church and some of the kids I grew up in VBS/church camp with. I also got to have lunch with my kids, my Mom, my Gpa Berrey & wife, my Gma Wilkins, Aunt and Uncle, and my sister. Gpa Berrey and his wife drove over 2 hours to get here from their home, but they were on special invitation since he used to pastor the church. It was all in all an awesome day with my family.

So why did I cry a bit while I was sitting at my computer doing a whole lot of nothing later that night? I dunno...I really don't. Feel free to guess, maybe it will help.

Anywho...enough of this pity party. I'm gonna eat some food and try to enjoy my night.

Welp...guess that means it's really over...

I have been officially removed as my wifes #1 friend on Myspace.com. Hell, I'm not even in her top friends. I think in some countries thats all you have to do to finalize a divorce. Anyways, more later...

Thursday, April 17, 2008

The first of many...

So what with all the changes that will be taking place in my life over the next few weeks/months/years, I thought it would be a good idea to try and put some of my thoughts "down on paper" so to speak.

To completely explain my current situation would be rather complex, so I'll sum it up in as few words as possible.

Last week me and my wife of nearly 10 years decided to separate. At this point, I'm not sure if it's permanent or not, bigger miracles have occured, but several things lead me to believe that it will be a permanent thing. I won't go into details, mainly because some of them are just guesses, but I like to think I have a pretty good sense of what is going on.

It's a wierd feeling not to be living in my house anymore, I went to pick up my kids for some "daddy time" last night and found myself wondering if I should knock on my own door or just walk in like normal. I decided the latter and it went ok, I'd assume that will change fairly fast though. This was the first time I'd seen my chilluns since they had gone to Cascade with mom a week and a half ago so I needed to spend some quality time with them and also talk to them about what was going on and why daddy wasn't at home.

My 5 year old could care less at this point, I don't think he can understand whats going on, my 10 year old picked up on it right away though. I asked him if he knew what a divorce was and he said, "It's like breaking up right?" Anyways, the talk went pretty well, I did my best to reassure him that I would be around as much as I could and that things would calm down after a bit. He seemed a little down about it, but thats nothing to be surprised about. The hardest part was trying to explain the "why" to him. The best I could come up with was "it's because mom and dad have certain things that they disagree on and decided to do this instead of fight about those things forever." Something like that anyway.

It's an odd feeling and an odd place for me to be. Everybody I talk to seems to think I should be suicidal or drinking myself to sleep while craying in a corner. I try to tell them that I'm really doing ok and they think I'm superhuman or just not very emotional. I just don't see much reason to dwell on the negative things and would rather push forward and get thru the hard times rather than prolong them. I don't think thats too weird, but I guess one mans "normal" is another mans "weird".

Anyways, I'm staying with my sister until details get ironed out. We'll see what happens after that. If you know me and read this, please "encourage" me to keep posting here as I would like it to become a habit.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008